Week 1 - 278.8 (- 4.7 lbs)

I know this isn't reality.


I have been through this before.  This is like the first week you get back from camp.  You are all hype and a changed person so you go HARD!  I did the first few days.  I guess I just needed to jump-start it all.  I am doing intermittent fasting (12p-8p eating window) and counting calories.   This is just to keep me from eating at night since I don't "do" breakfast.  


Can I talk about Breakfast for a second? Breakfast is overrated.  I don't know why people like it so much.  Don't get me wrong, a good breakfast burrito is awesome, but I can eat that shit in the middle of the day and be just as happy.  My pallet is pretty lame, just ask all my friends, but it seems like breakfast is like a few things.  Eggs, bacon, and some sort of bread things like toast or pancakes.  BORING!


Anyways, this week was good.  Counting is kind of tedious and slows everything down.   This might be a good thing because my mind is always moving so fast.  Anything that slows me down is a good thing.  I just tried to make good choices and I think it kinda worked.


Also, another thing I am trying that's different is I am weighing myself every day.  It's crazy how much ones weight changes day to day, up a pound one day, down 2 the next.  Doing so has really helped me.  What would normally happen is I would try my hardest each week and I would get so nervous.  If I didn't lose or didn't lose "enough" I would be s upset.  And think "what am I doing this for".  The build-up all week would put unnecessary pressure on me that I absolutely hated.  When weighing yourself every day you take the power away from it.  So far I like it.  Even though on Friday of this week I was 1lbs lower than I am today (and I was even WAY under my cal intake every day since then).  So what I am trying to say is I'm going to keep doing this, for as long as I feel like it is helping me mentally.


As I said before this is a great start I won't be hard on myself, but I do know the first few weeks are always big losses and it will slow down.  So for now I will be happy where I am and pat myself on the back for what I did in one week.


Awesome job me...thanks me...now leave me alone.


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